What is tooday

I feel like when I started this blog I used it as a way to relieve some of the ideas that were stuck inside my head and release them on the world.  When the dynamics change, and we start to see that we are capable of growing, we tend to begin to grow and become something else entirely.  The truth is I use this as a way to release some of the pressure that is built up within my head of the day to day things that I am not always happy with.  I wanted an avenue where I could be placed in a circle and share my story and thinking with others in a way to help connect myself with other people.  One thing I can promise you when you start to get real and I mean to have integrity with yourself it will show out to the world.  So that’s why I recommend that people tell their story.  I feel as though stories are a way for all people to connect with each other and to grow as individuals.  When we get our message out into the world, it changes our own per...

Hope indeed is a funny thing because it creates some motivation for you to do something.  I know with the hope I would be dead by now.  I use it as a tool to help me keep going through all the bs and all the tough times we have to face.  This is going to sound stupid, but I forgot the relevant part of hope is the execution aspect.  You can wish and hope till you are blue in the face, but it requires action to turn that hope into something.  I have to believe I am great and am capable of becoming better because that will not come from other people.  I think people should not always be rewarded every single time they do the right thing because when they go into the bigger world, there are no more celebrations everytime someone does something they are supposed to do.  The essential aspects here come from understanding that we are not perfect and our flaws my stand out sometimes more than I amazing talents.  That's why I say hope is funny.  Yo...

The most significant challenge I face is to overcome myself.  I have a desire to inspire to be beyond the examples they have seen.  I meet myself every day and I do not always like what I know but I do remember that we are amazing creatures that are all powerful and can not be limited by the frames that we are placed into.  I really have the notion that what I want to do is inspire others to be everything they are and everything they can be because I am not everything I can be until I reach this point.  I believe I was smart until I wasn't I think I was tall until I wasn't.  The fundamental difference between myself and others is that I know I am in a place of darkness right now and cannot always see the light but I can not give up.  My friend killed him, self and that in itself reminds me of how much he meant to all the lives he affected including mine.  He was a much better man than me and stronger too, but I can not fai...

I thought that things would magically fall into place at a certain point in my life, but it did not.  I don't know where this illusion came from, but I do know that it can't continue. What people like myself tend to overestimate is the quality of people and what they can and can't do.  I place my faith in people so much not causes me confused and angry and self-hatred.  You can only take the blame for everything for so long before it drives you crazy.  I feel like I always made excuses for other people because I thought that what I was a person that I was helping the people in my life but all you do is end up hurting them instead. The people in our lives need that check just like you do.  Pretending something is your fault or creating excuses causes them to repeat behaviors because they believe it is acceptable to you.  The key to anything to stand up for something.  I know that bridges are going to burn, but I learned those connections were never c...

The doubt here is not an entertainment industry problem but a human problem.  The crazy thing is we actually know that we can do something great and have the ability to achieve something great but the doubt comes in our heads.  I know that is definitely true for me as well because when things and situations in our lives are going great, it never seems to matter what happens but when things suck we let the doubt come in.  That is indeed amazing that the thinking in our mind only have a negative impact on us when we are at our weakest.  It is almost a flood of ideas and concepts all come together in our heads.  I have happy thoughts and boom more happy thoughts, but let a negative one sneak in, and that’s all she wrote from the comfortable thinking I was having.  The problem with this is that when we are already doing it hits us that much harder.  The point of this comes back to the superheroes movies, where the hero has a little doubt and the floodgate...

 The importance of showing that emotion has grown more important to me.  I get saddened by the news so much I got to the point that I just say “figures” when I hear something wrong.  I know that it does not figure, but I feel as though it is a defense mechanism for the scanning and suffering that people go through.  The worst aspects of people get displayed every day, yes, but I can not ever forget the good qualities of people as well.  The best conditions of people come from the tv as well. Why do some people stand out while others don’t?  I was always amazed at that principle that some people are willing to die to become something, while others are not.  We almost celebrate people whom are free and do not follow the same rules that everyone else has to follow.  We place them on this pedestal, and we call them better than us because we are stuck in our ways, and we can not change because we have to follow the rules.  I am one of those supp...

The funniest part of life comes from the fact that tv seems to be real to me sometimes. The strangest concepts all stand out to me as being essential and are always the most interesting.  The crazy thing about our lives is we are still doing many different things.  Tv ever stood out to me as an escape from a shitty situation I found myself.  The best things in life come from tv because the lessons are so much more connected to people as humans.  I was watching a show about doctors, and the one thing that made me cry the hardest was the concepts related to the connection one has with the colleagues they work.  The bests part of tv comes into the significant points compared to the facts that we can overcome anything, we all have problems,  love your family despite there flaws, challenges make us stronger and be; life in yourself.  The same concepts apply to any show out there.  If you watch SpongeBob, you can even clearly see the importance of bel...

Today is full of opportunity and hope from a guy that does not have the choice to have any say or any real guidance for what I am doing. The most significant failures of my life I associate closely with the simple fact that I am to blame for everything.  I am scared of many different things for change to driving to deep sea to heights all types of stuff, and that fear of the unknown creates panic within me, and I can not live a peaceful life it actually becomes one full of anxiety and discomfort be within myself as a person. Maybe no one relates to this but I can honestly say its like waking up with a weight on your shoulders every day, and it creates a lot of stress and constant panic.  It would be more comfortable away from all of this, and we would all be pleased.  I feel pressure not to fail always and that I am not doing enough which in turn makes me feel overwhelmed and actually causes me to do nothing and freeze up when the world is pouring...